sebtember

I'm drowning in myself again and again.
I can't breath and do not know how to react.
I don't recognize the people who are around me.
I think they will attack me, hurt me, hate me, fear me.
I'm making a joke out of it. I know, I'm joking it off.
I don't understand what people say to me.
It's just empty words.
I dare not trust the people, for all I've trusted have hurt me.
I am frightened of myself and want to bury me. Never come up.
I stand on the edge and want to know what happens when everything goes black.
I see my childhood when I close my eyes.
I see those who hurt me. They made me bleed.
I am not alone.